Me, Myself and Whhhyyy

 My morning started off dragging out of bed, hours earlier than I normally would but on a high note. A big interview was on the agenda and my children were quick to call and message to make sure I was up. With good wishes and a cup of coffee downed... I was off to master the interview of the job I knew was perfect for me. 

As I sat in the parking lot (minutes ahead of schedule) I went over my highlights and experiences to remind myself what to say. The front door was locked so I texted and waited nervously for a response. A half hour later I kindly thanked him for the consideration and drove off. Furious at another moment where I felt like the air was punched out of me. How could I be so pumped up just to be ditched to the extreme.

I climbed back into bed feeling low. Thinking this journey is going to be so much harder if life keeps jabbing at me. As I was drifting off back to sleep a text popped up on my phone apologizing for the miss and requested a reschedule.

Suddenly, I was once again reminded that life happens and to stop jumping into the deep end of the pool. Maybe, I need to look into yoga or something to help with my much needed "chill the eff out" techniques. 

Is it breath in the nose out the mouth ... Or vice versa?

With that my day carried on. I called my mini me to annoy her, since I knew she must be missing another phone call from her Mother.

"MESO SPIT OUT THE BEE" 

My pup likes to play with bugs... Large grasshoppers, spiders and the wasps. It's very .. strange and oddly intriguing.

Anyway, my mini me's belly laughing and instant FB post... Had me laughing at my own pup parenting!

You know... Crawling from the depths of my insecurities and forcing myself to stop being so damn afraid.... Is proving to be amazing for me! 

I find my mental processing of each scenario... Can be simplified and pumped up on the ego meter. I had no idea how many times I jump my thoughts to negativity all surrounding me.

This has to stop.

My efforts, rawness and self refections will be for nothing if I don't train my mind to be a fan of me. Crazy how the plot twist keeps headlining my name for the star role of the attraction. 

When you realize every step of your personal journey is all about you. It simplifies the problem and adds value to the boundaries you set. 

It's myself that needs reminding that me and I is necessary for any and all of this to work!